Wednesday, 27 August 2014

UrAnInspiration: Warsan Shire



Sorry for being AWOL lately guys, IB2 just got real so been a bit busy

This #UrAnInspiration series is basically going to throw people that have inspired my life greatly into the limelight in the hope that they do they same for someone else who may stumble across my blog.
Today I’m focusing on Warsan Shire, this woman has been such an inspiration in my life…her poetry is uncompromisingly real, honest and wears vulnerability around its neck like an adornment. Warsan Shire is able to flawlessly uncover her layers and present them as beautiful and artful pieces of literature.
Warsan Shire is an inspiration
Here is some of my favorite pieces by the lovely Warsan Shire

“you are a horse running alone
and he tries to tame you
compares you to an impossible highway
to a burning house
says you are blinding him
that he could never leave you
forget you
want anything but you
you dizzy him, you are unbearable
every woman before or after you
is doused in your name
you fill his mouth
his teeth ache with memory of taste
his body just a long shadow seeking yours
but you are always too intense
frightening in the way you want him
unashamed and sacrificial
he tells you that no man can live up to the one who
lives in your head
and you tried to change didn't you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
prettier
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can't make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that

and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love
.”
― Warsan Shire
 
“how far have you walked for men who’ve never held your feet in their laps?
how often have you bartered with bone, only to sell yourself short?
why do you find the unavailable so alluring?
where did it begin? what went wrong? and who made you feel so worthless?
if they wanted you, wouldn’t they have chosen you?
all this time, you were begging for love silently, thinking they couldn’t hear you, but they smelt it on you, you must have known that they could taste the desperate on your skin?
and what about the others that would do anything for you, why did you make them love you until you could not stand it?
how are you both of these women, both flighty and needful?
where did you learn this, to want what does not want you?
where did you learn this, to leave those that want to stay?”
― Warsan Shire

“1. I’m lonely so I do lonely things
2. Loving you was like going to war; I never came back the same.
3. You hate women, just like your father and his father, so it runs in your blood.
4. I was wandering the derelict car park of your heart looking for a ride home.
5. You’re a ghost town I’m too patriotic to leave.
6. I stay because you’re the beginning of the dream I want to remember.
7. I didn’t call him back because he likes his girls voiceless.
8. It’s not that he wants to be a liar; it’s just that he doesn’t know the truth.
9. I couldn’t love you, you were a small war.
10. We covered the smell of loss with jokes.
11. I didn’t want to fail at love like our parents.
12. You made the nomad in me build a house and stay.
13. I’m not a dog.
14. We were trying to prove our blood wrong.
15. I was still lonely so I did even lonelier things.
16. Yes, I’m insecure, but so was my mother and her mother.
17. No, he loves me he just makes me cry a lot.
18. He knows all of my secrets and still wants to kiss me.
19. You were too cruel to love for a long time.
20. It just didn’t work out.
21. My dad walked out one afternoon and never came back.
22. I can’t sleep because I can still taste him in my mouth.
23. I cut him out at the root, he was my favorite tree, rotting, threatening the foundations of my home.
24. The women in my family die waiting.
25. Because I didn’t want to die waiting for you.
26. I had to leave, I felt lonely when he held me.
27. You’re the song I rewind until I know all the words and I feel sick.
28. He sent me a text that said “I love you so bad.”
29. His heart wasn’t as beautiful as his smile
30. We emotionally manipulated one another until we thought it was love.
31. Forgive me, I was lonely so I chose you.
32. I’m a lover without a lover.
33. I’m lovely and lonely.
34. I belong deeply to myself .”

― Warsan Shire
 “My alone feels so good, I'll only have you if you're sweeter than my solitude.”
― Warsan Shire

“give your daughters difficult names. give your daughters names that command the full use of tongue. my name makes you want to tell me the truth. my name doesn’t allow me to trust anyone that cannot pronounce it right.”
― Warsan Shire

“At the end of the day, it isn’t where I came from. Maybe home is somewhere I’m going and never have been before.”
― Warsan Shire

“It's not my responsibility to be beautiful. I'm not alive for that purpose. My existence is not about how desirable you find me.”
― Warsan Shire

 “later that night
i held an atlas in my lap
ran my fingers across the whole world
and whispered
where does it hurt?

it answered
everywhere
everywhere
everywhere.”
― Warsan Shire
 
“i don't know when love became elusive
what i know, is that no one i know has it
my fathers arms around my mothers neck
fruit too ripe to eat, a door half way open
when your name is a just a hand i can never hold
everything i have ever believed in, becomes magic.

i think of lovers as trees, growing to and
from one another searching for the same light,
my mothers laughter in a dark room,
a photograph greying under my touch,
this is all i know how to do, carry loss around until
i begin to resemble every bad memory,
every terrible fear,
every nightmare anyone has ever had.

i ask did you ever love me?
you say of course, of course so quickly
that you sound like someone else
i ask are you made of steel? are you made of iron?
you cry on the phone, my stomach hurts


“Your daughter is ugly.
She knows loss intimately,
carries whole cities in her belly.

As a child, relatives wouldn’t hold her.
She was splintered wood and sea water.
They said she reminded them of the war.

On her fifteenth birthday you taught her
how to tie her hair like rope
and smoke it over burning frankincense.

You made her gargle rosewater
and while she coughed, said
macaanto girls like you shouldn’t smell
of lonely or empty.

You are her mother.
Why did you not warn her,
hold her like a rotting boat
and tell her that men will not love her
if she is covered in continents,
if her teeth are small colonies,
if her stomach is an island
if her thighs are borders?

What man wants to lay down
and watch the world burn
in his bedroom?

Your daughter’s face is a small riot,
her hands are a civil war,
a refugee camp behind each ear,
a body littered with ugly things

but God,
doesn’t she wear
the world well.”

― Warsan Shire
I want to make love, but my hair smells of war and running and running.”
― Warsan Shire, Teaching My Mother How to Give Birth

Make sure you check out her blog Warsan In Wonderland at warsanshire.blogspot.com/

Thanx for reading hope you were inspired
Xx Kae- stay inspired







Sunday, 24 August 2014

WeAreRunwayForCharity



Part of The Runway For Charity Team (left to right) Bella Ntete, Harish Jesani, Kiran Kaur, Me(Lamich Kirabo) Mosheena Pirani

I'm wearing An over-sized purple checkered shirt, white vest, blue ripped jeans,(all from flee markets) golden chain necklace (gift from my mum)


Long days Short Nights I’m about that life right now, preparing for a fashion show is no easy task, between the meetings, and fittings, and model auditions, and photo shoots I find that I am hardly getting anytime to myself, and now I’m even learning to live with bags under my eyes, and just enough sleep every day to get by…but I LOVE IT.

  
 
Doing this fashion show has really allowed me to decide that without a doubt I want to study fashion design in university, the whole thing thrills me, the long hours are worth it, the stressful days when you are running around looking for models, buying material in the rain, eating in shady places and taking selfies all day, that thrills me, that is worth it.
 
I’ve been going back and forth with my future prospects getting sidelined by the fact that everyone seems to be doing something so professional and uptight, and all I want to do is create beautiful wearable art.

I am an artist, I have finally come to terms with that, I see it as an asset in fact not something that has to be hidden for the sake of looking put together.

This is me, fashion photo shoots, giving back, helping out, making art, this is me.
I had a great time today even though it was stressful…Runway for charity, a project me and a friend came up with to help Cancer Patients in Mulago hospital while promoting young innovative talent in the fashion industry is afloat, and its sailing in the right direction! It is amazing to look back and see how big this project has grown from something that we came up with during a lesson in class to something that now has some of the biggest businesses in Uganda sponsoring it. Makes me so happy.
Part of the team that made today a success (left to right) Jemima Magara, Bella Ntete, Kiran Kaur, Lara Owor, Me(Lamich Kirabo)

If I could give advice in all my naivety and youthfulness I would say to anyone trying to decide what to do in life, find that one thing that would make the work worthwhile and go after it, cause after all, long days, short nights and hard work are inevitable, but

As long as you are doing what you love, even if it is hard work you will find it within yourself to enjoy it
  P.s. this does not apply to y’all with creepy desires lol


Ali Yassin for RunwayforCharity
Asma for RunwayforCharity
Roberta for RunwayforCharity
 
If you are around make sure you don’t miss the Runway For Charity fashions show, ITS GOING TO BE AWESOOOOOMMMMEEEEEE, TRUST ME!
Sheraton Victoria Ballroom, 6pm-11pm, 80,000 Ug shillings, 13th September Spread the word
Xx Kae- stay inspired