I’m sitting here in the middle of
my pile of books, contemplating how much of Midaq
Alley I can read before sleep finally wins me over, late night blogging on
the first day of school.
Summer! Its over!!! I want to cry and lay in bed for days still and unmoving, watching the sun rise and fall, I’ve been thinking, this has been my last summer of high school. I tried to take it all in, really enjoy every fun and stupid moment I had. It’s been a summer of tears and laughter, and screaming and shouting, and being quite and really listening. Really reaching inside of myself self and taking the time to be honest with myself, and be vulnerable and real. It’s been a summer of breaking walls and being awe struck with the amount of warmth and beauty of sunlight.
Staying in the country and not
real going on vacation really gave me time to put it all into perspective,
piece it together piece by piece, be content as it all fell together. Me. It’s
been a summer of poetry and art and finding out what really makes me tick, what
I really want to do in life, the people I want to have around me, one of the
things I figured out I want to do is live creatively and honestly. Wherever it
takes me…to always allow myself the courage to do so. Re-opening my blog, starting
to write again, starting to really paint again and not just copy paste pictures
has been all part of that.
I find myself now on a journey every day, this awkward
between childhood and adulthood years, when you are pretty sure of who you are,
what you want to do, and where but it’s still a mental thing. Something that
only takes place in your head. The years where everyone younger than you see’s
you as an adult, grown, matured and expects so much of you, and everyone older than you still see’s you as a child. The
years of finding which you are and how to close the chapter of your childhood
with some closure, delving deep, finally sifting through all the clutter and
noise you’ve accumulated over your childhood and deciding what’s important and what’s
not.
It’s been a summer of finding God, or being still enough to
hear Him speak, deciding what’s right and wrong for me, and setting my own
boundaries. It’s been a summer of taking stock, revaluation, rethinking,
reinvention.
Its also been a summer of gratitude, I’m grateful for so
many things this summer, my great friends, my amazing family, the little things
that God keeps placing around me to remind me that He got my back, im thankful
for good music, and great food, and this amazing country I’m so proud to call
home.
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| Neon blue and lime grean nail polish by L.A. Colours (gifted from my cousin). Eqyptian Gold studded earring from flee market 3,000 shillings. |
It’s been busy too, but between fashion show meeting and
business Internal Assessment meetings (International Baccalaureate Anyone????) I’ve
managed to find some peace within myself. I think that’s enough, honestly I
wouldn’t have traded it for anything, ok maybe a shopping spree in Dubai, but
what I’m trying to say is, as laid back and uninteresting as my summer might
have seemed I think all that me time was worth it. And the few moments I got to
spend with people, really put it all into perspective.
So here’s to an awesome summer
Goodnight guys
Thanks for reading
xx Kae - stay inspired
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